Faith is all I need

Wow, I did not realize that people actually read my blog! Anyway, just another entry here to mark another milestone. I am at a point of pure Faith in what I do. I realize finally that most of the problems we face daily is about vision to move ahead and faith to pull us through when the times get bad. Currently I am running on pure faith with only less than 200 bucks left in the bank. In the past I have talked about getting through and having a lot of faith. Now I am finally in the position to put that into practice! I want to be true to my beliefs and principles and really live up to them. Looking forward believing that what I envision will come. Full faith is what I need to muster up.

I found out it's easy to talk about faith and espouse all sorts of quotes when you are comfortably sitting on your home couch watching tv and doing nothing but those works hold a special meaning and place when said and practiced in the eye of adversity.

Wish me luck people! It's the start of a new journey for my family and I.

in reference to: The Journey (view on Google Sidewiki)

Spiritualism vs Religiousness

Spiritualism to me explains so much of the questions that religious teachings left a hole. I had a few questions about religious issues be in Buddhism or in Islam that no one could answer. In the past, not being able to answer these questions, I was forced to accept the teachings in a half hearted manner. It was hard for me. I wanted to know and was curious to know what the religious point of view was, but somehow no matter how hard I searched for an answer, it did not satisfy me. I felt a lack and deep inside felt that religion could not answer it. I was told to have faith but the voice inside of me asked "How can you have faith when you don't know what is it you are having faith in ??"

New age or spiritualism opened up a new door for me and all of my questions could be answered. Finally I could bridge the gap between mysticism, science and religion, all subjects close to my heart. "Why do some children have to die young and suffer","If bomoh's are using Islamic incantations then are they practicing the word of god","If god is good, why does god allow bad things to happen in the world" are all questions that I could answer now and I am happy and inspired. I have reconnected with my source. A force or God which I have always been close to as a child feeling it's warmth and comfort. I nearly lost that as I was growing up swayed by the good judgments of those around me. New age beliefs allowed me to see the bridge between my other childhood beliefs such as astrology, chinese facial astrology and conventional religion. I saw a lot of things differently and found the answers to my of my questions. For those who think that spiritualism will cause you to be less religious, it actually strengthen my belief in God. I felt the closeness I felt to God back when I was just a child. How could I not? God is after all a part of us.

The concept of fairness

Today is a break through day for me. In technical techno babble, I have received and installed my latest round of patches. Today's patch has something to do with the concept of fairness. In my family there is only the two of us, that is my sister and me. From the time I was very young, my mom would drill into us the concept of fairness being very important in our daily affairs. I thought I understood this concept, until recently when I ran into conflict with my mom. I used to think that fairness means same or in terms of material things, something that I have my sister has to have something similar. This concept that I had in my noggin' recently ran into a bit of challenge when I noticed that my mom treated both of us differently. My mom would be very sensitive to all of my sister's needs to the point of feeling scared to leave the house least my sister woke up and found no one around. I felt angry and a bit irritated as I felt that my mom did not practice what she preached. I thought she was a bit of a hypocrite saying something but doing something else.

However, today I allowed the wisdom of the universe to flow through and I realized something. Fairness in my mom's eyes was giving us each exactly what we need for us to be close as a family. In my case I have always been very open and receptive, so I was easier to talk to. My sister speaks a different language emotionally and my mom had to bend certain so called "rules" to accommodate for her. While in the past I felt that this "accommodation" process is double standard treatment, now I see it as the universe way of being "fair". We are all given what we need, and one needs to delve a bit deeper beyond to see "fairness".

A lot of people still have hang ups about this kind of thing especially siblings as they usually feel they are in competition for attention from the day the universe put them in the role of siblings. With this new knowledge, I see all of this "problems" in a new light and I would like to project this knowing to all the other siblings or people that might need it.

Miss Quek

Today during my ride home a yellow faded sign with the words "Quek and Co." caught my attention. My memories got transported to time when I was in standard 3 in St. Thomas primary school. There is an incident that happened to me during my younger days that has always stuck with me.

Miss Quek is my class teacher during my 3 year in primary school. She is a stocky lady with a round face and sharp eye brows and boomy voice. She would be what many would consider the stereotypical dragon lady type. One day there was a few education auditors that was coming to visit our class. Before the auditors came she "prepped" us up by telling all of us to hold up our hands during any of the Question and Answer session to give an overall impression of good interactive participation from the class. During those days, we would be what you call a rebellious lot often giving her a hard time. What was surprising during that day is that all of us participated and gave her version of "good" participation. I still remembered we were promised rewards of stamps from her private collection if we obeyed.

What struck me was that after the class, the auditors took her aside and gave her a few words. From the back of the class I could make out that Miss Quek was trying to hold back some tears as the auditors talked to her. That moment of tenderness from this woman that all of us considered the iron dragon lady stuck with me and till this day I do not know what transpired between the auditor and her that day. After the whole episode she dismissed us with few words and nothing else was spoken of it. Out of all my memories from my younger day this particular memory has stuck with me most vividly. It's almost like yesterday I am the young boy at the back of the class wondering why my teacher was trying to hold back her tears.

Chinese face theories and vibes

Through my observations I found that there is a link between chinese facial theories and the study of vibes. I found this by looking at people who have had high levels of stress in their lives. They usually have something about their facial features that is a bit out of sync too. This is the place where ancient chinese theories about recognizing a person's behavior or character using their facial features. Eyebrows that meat is a sign of close minds. A high brow means an intelligent mind .. those kind of things.

Your inner feelings or vibes will manifest itself on your face. I learned the hard way that how good you look on a day will influence who you meet and how good your dealings will be on that day. It's hard for me initially who wanted to move away from being judge outwardly and felt that people should not look at the exterior but judge a person what is like inside. However, if you accept the fact that your outer shell or looks is a representation of your inner self then judging a person by their looks might not be so stupid as hithero thought.

What I think is, Chinese philosophers learned the skill of facial reading using their superior mastery of vibes reading and recorded all the knowledge now which is now known as the Chinese Physiognomy - Face Reading. I found a nice blog which says a fair bit more about what I am trying to say here.

Do not own that

I found that more often than not the temper we are seeking so hard to control can just be controlled with the simple act of delaying a reaction to the stimulus. It's simple. Delay your feeling of reaction or injustice for a few minutes, slowly compose your smart come back. If you feel hurt or that anger sting become less sharp and blunt continue for a few more minutes longer without a reply. It's letting the hot air out of a balloon. It works everytime. If this doesn't work I find that quickly extracting yourself from the heated situation works wonders. Remember everyone of life's seemingly out-ta-get-ya moments are nothing more than oppotunities god or the universe gives us to let our best qualities shine through.

If you ask for patience, the universe or God delivers by putting you in situation where you can exercise your patience. Viewing it from this aspect allows you to always be on top of your day. Hold on to this and you will always be calm. If however, you are not ready, it's okay to just step away and come back at another time. It just means that we have to do some extra tuning to get ourselves ready for the situation. You are perfect. You are exactly the way you are meant to be. You just choose to extend and test yourself in new and uncomfortable situations. That is growing.

Getting yourself noticed : update update update

If woody allen once said that showing up is one half of success, then let me complete the saying ... "the other half is making sure people know you exist !". The incredelous among you might already be saying "Of course I exist ! People see me going in and out of the office daily and I attend all the meetings !!" Wrong Wrong wrong on all counts. In this fast moving and busy world you would be surprised how many times good even great people are overlooked for promotions, salary upgrades and other niceties over their seemingly less capable counterparts. This happens not because of favoritism but because bosses or higher don't even know they exist. I see this all the time among my fellow younger techies. Yes they are the ones hunched in the dark corner banging away on the key board thinking that if they complete their task quietly their bosses will sure appreciate their work and give them equal compensation. Worse still is that they don't even care if this happens ! Bottom line ... you are the greatest promoter for your own work or ability and you should never feel uncomfortable about shining the spot light on yourself once in a while. Why should you ? You are capable and smart and tooting your horn once in a while is a helathy boost for the self esteem.

What is the first step in promoting yourself and your work ? Update. What's the second step ? Update. The third is of course also update ! When you are working on a project assigned to you or your group, it is always in your best interest to update your boss or higher up about what you are doing. Believe me, sometimes they just plain don't know what you are doing ! Expecting your boss to know exactly what your contribution in your project by himself with his already busy schedule is not only plain stupid, it is egoistically stupid ! Your company's world does not revolve around you and leaving the knowledge of contribution to your project to Lady Luck will often leave you unnoticed and disappointed. The key here is to write an update report not to show your results but to show the effort that you put into your work. So if just spent the whole day scouring google without any luck or headway in trying to solve your problem, include that too ! Those stuff are essential in relaying to your management how much you care about your work and how much effort you put into it.

So this concludes the first three steps in getting yourself noticed in your work place. The next time I will go into creating a successful image of yourself at work, so stay tuned.